A true Life Story
Written by a college girl before she gave up the ghost......I Took Off My Underwear..
I used to be that innocent girl who had the world at her feet. I was
beautiful and I had eyes and hips that could make men sway, and to top
it all up, I was a Christian, a very good Christian with a heart burning
for God.
When I entered the university, I met a guy, his name was
Derrick. I couldn’t believe my luck the first time I bumped into him on
my way to class, he had such a kind smile and a tender look that
weakened my knees when he spoke.
Because I was late for class we
couldn’t talk much but barely three weeks later, I met him at the
fresher’s night party and I was overwhelmed. We got talking and I found
out that he was in his second year and from that night, we became an
inseparable pair.
At first, we were friends and as months passed by, we got closer and closer and the chemistry between us was undeniable.
About a year after I entered the university, Derrick and I started
dating. He was everything a girl could ever want and desire save the
fact that he wasn’t so much of a Christian. Derrick had magical hands
that made him hard to resist and most times I fell for it. At first, I
felt bad but when I couldn’t help falling into the same pit I killed the
guilt on my inside. And then one day, one of my friends said I was
getting fatter and that got me thinking and in the process I began to
link the dots…first I had a vomiting spree every morning which I thought
was due to a flu and then I had this morning sickness which I felt was
due to stress and then my missing period…oh no it can’t be possible I
said to myself, I couldn’t be pregnant!!!
After a series of test
outside school, I realized the deadliest truth, I was indeed pregnant. I
was only nineteen, I still had a whole life ahead of me, what was I
going to do. I couldn’t tell my parents, they wouldn’t hear of it. I had
to go to Derrick to tell him what I had found out.
On telling him, I
saw him fly into a temper I had never seen in my life. He was so
hysterical, calling me all sorts of names and I didn’t even know when I
started crying heart drenching tears of hurt and betrayal. When he
looked into my eyes he must have realized how scared and hurt I was and
so he pulled me close and ran his hands through my hair until I had
calmed down and then he said tome in the most subtle voice ever”why
don’t you have an abortion”.I pulled back instantly, I couldn’t have an
abortion! But when he talked about my parents and the sanctioning of the
school and the fellowship which I belonged to, I knew I had no other
choice.
Derrick had made all the arrangements and so on the supposed
day we went to the room- like clinic. I shivered all through my way
there but Derrick kept telling me that it would be okay and that he was
proud that I made such a brave decision. When I entered into the room
where the abortion was supposed to take place I laid down on the table
trying to dissociate my mind from what I was about to do and then a
young man told me sternly, ” you know I can’t perform this procedure
with your underwear on” and then I began to pull it off.As I did this a
sense of guilt overwhelmed me, first I had pulled off my underwear of
pleasure and now I was pulling it off to get rid of the stigma the
pleasure had brought…what a shame, I felt so exposed.
All through
the times that I felt instruments coming in and out of me, I kept
thinking of the lady I had become and the hypocrite I had transformed
into. I let out a sigh, only if I can get through this I muttered… only
if…and then I felt a sharp pain pierce through the whole of my body, I
screamed but then the doctor told me to be quiet. I felt another pain but
this time I bit my lip and then the pain began to come in successions. I
instinctively knew that something was wrong but I was too weak to talk
or to move and then I heard the voices of Derrick and the doctor talking
about the fact that I was bleeding excessively. The pain was so
unbearable and I could feel myself getting weaker and weaker. With the
last strengthen me, I pleaded with God”Oh Lord I’m so sorry for taking
my under wears off, please forgive me.” and I drifted into a world where
the pain seemed less hurtful and the voices seemed more distant.
Friends, our bodies are the temple of the Lord… Do not take off your
underwear when the time is not right. Lots of girls who gained admission
into the university as virgins eventually lost it so cheaply to guys who
have nothing to do with their
destinies. In a bid to get a certificate, they sold out a destiny that certificate cannot guarantee....
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